Sad

Reached KLIA about 3 pm. Went back fr KK & Sandakan. Conducted 2 trainings there.

Today i read my husband's blog. Feel so sad that I really dont understand him. Since i refused to go to our previous church, he was so mad about me and started to stay away from me. I just want to be happy! I dont like their management! Pastor will always right??? I'm so far away from his thought. Sometimes we really cannot talk to each other, sure will ended up with quarreling. I'm also tired of it! I know we love each other so much but somehow we are so difficult to accept our different opinions. I know I'm very easy to get angry with him. I just cant stand him sometimes! I need adequate freedom! I know, I know, he did all for my good sake. But I do have my own view. Try hard! Must achieve my target, no quarreling!

So long never talk to God! Dont know how to describe my feeling right now. Am I still believe in Him? Am I still depend on Him? This whole week I was staying alone in a hotel. Actually I scared to sleep alone. Scared of things are unseen in the hotel's room. I think that is the moment that I need Him most, I started to hold the bible and reading the Psam that will make me feel peace. Lord, how? What should I do? Sometimes I think I'm just using you as my protecter, to 实现 all my wishes. Lord, tell me how to love you and other people more???

My New Job

Just went back fr my Melaka trip, tired lah! Train the market representative there! But compare with my ex-company, this one easier a lot! I no need to take care of the booking of hotel, no need to do market visit, no need to make payment, etc.

Quite like my new company. Although i just join 1 week only, but i quite like the environment here. Good benefit, flexsible, Friday can wear Jeans, can surf net (outside of my company website)....... And my boss was approved my leave! Ah, so scare that i can't apply leave for my marriage. Luckily my boss is kind enough to allow me to have one week leave.

婚前四十天

好久没写网上日记了. He He, 不好意思, 有点懒. Hai... 要结束我没有做工的日子了. 因为我已经找到工作了. 是在F&N Coca Cola当Sales Trainer. 明天正式上班!感谢主!

离结婚只剩下一个月了!很快. 所以这几次回家时,妈妈都会灌输我一些做人媳妇的大道理. 还说结婚过后是"大人"了,不可以再乱发小姐脾气.她简直是过分担心了嘛!我这么"乖". (Pai se lah) 而且还嘱咐我结婚后要比我的未来家婆早起. 天啊!浩伟的妈妈早上五点起床, 那我不是要四点起身???

老实说, 是蛮担心的. 注册一年半了,我一直扮演着浩伟的妻子这个角色. 结婚后, 我除了是妻子,我还是媳妇,是嫂嫂,是舅母,是......很多很多. 我从此嫁入这个家庭, 去适应这整个家族. 不哓得这是不是我可以胜任的.